What I'm missing here are the stories of serving food to the homeless, why the voting was so mindless and lemminglike, (regardless of party?), any sense that living in a high rise, attending the opera, shopping for useless conveniences. could in any way require giving back to society. If all this collapses on you, from a betrayal or insight, it can drive you out of your body, if you have no social capital to buy it off. The presumption of honesty and full disclosure from your "friends" discloses its Cheshire cat smile. You only think you know them. Often one senses that asking for deeper knowledge from a friend would reduce friendliness.