Don't know why, There's no sun up in the sky, sang Billie Holiday, Stormy weather, Since my man and me ain't together, Keeps
rainin' all the time.
It was more than a sad love song. Her plaintive voice, the myriad nuances of her phrasing, the pitch to pitch notes she
created… all made her music simply magic.
I saw her twice during my lifetime (and hers) live! Once at the old Metropole in Manhattan's jazz district, and at the
CBS television studios in New York, one Sunday afternoon, during a live broadcast... in black and white before they began to use tape.
Billie Holiday was an astonishing actress, in every sense of the word. Though she became a legendary jazz and pop singer, did to
music and lyrics what no one had done before or since, and influenced generations of musicians, you had to see her perform to realize that she
embodied that essence of theatre, the actor-audience heartbeat. When she sang, she listened to the lyric, believed in what she was
saying (singing), and with her voice, face and body... gave out that belief. Those around her, including the other musicians took it in, shared it, and were moved. Pure
theatre, pure art.
When I saw her, her famed physical beauty was shadowed and blurred. Her voice had acquired a rasp that muffled the
clarity she once had and limited her range. But her musicianship was intact and her acting heart was open and beating. She stirred people including those who knew almost nothing
about her and her living legend.
Where did this come from, this ability to enter a sense of reality, create a
belief around it, and send it to an audience? She didn't learn it in an acting studio or as an apprentice to a master actor. She owned it in her
mind and the circumstances in her life developed it. We call it a gift, we call it talent, we call her a natural. I call her an actor, an artist, bent to be
different from most other human beings, turned to be isolated and singled out.
If you haven't heard Billie Holiday, listen to her. Almost all of her recordings have been remastered and are available. And there are video
clips and film clips which in a small way capture some of her magic. She was an astonishing actress and musician. There is no one singing today
who can phrase and sustain the eddying sound the way she could.